Wow. It's been awhile...

I always have the best intentions of sitting down and writing a long post filled with pictures of my boys and then I always let something, or more likely, someone distract me.

I can't believe I haven't updated in almost 4 months. Things have changed, that's for sure.

Matthew is now in MIDDLE SCHOOL. I know, shut up, right?? He will be 12 in 11 days. I know I'm getting older, I mean if there was any doubt the gray hair and the frown lines would surely out me but I honest to God cannot believe my son is almost 12 years old. And in MIDDLE SCHOOL.

Ashton is in 5th grade and almost 11 years old. He is a football player and out of all four of my boys he is most definitely the most sensitive and loving towards others. Like yesterday. I had training for work. Mark took him to football practice so by the time I got to even see him it was almost 8 pm and he snuggled up next to me and said "mom, how was your teller bootcamp today?" The fact that he asked about my day and he knew the name of my training was amazing to me LOL. <3 that kid, I do.

Nicholas is 8 and in 2nd grade. And he reads to me and I love it. I love hearing my child who has struggled the most in school READ to me. He is blond and has big beautiful blue eyes and a face full of freckles. I think he's edible.

Adam is 6 and in FIRST grade. Again, SHUT UP! How is my youngest "baby" in FIRST grade? He is like a clone of me. He really wants us to have another baby which surprises me since he has never known anything but being the baby. But every night he asks when we can have another baby. You'll have to take that one up with daddy's urologist buddy!

Mark and I are doing good. In August we had our 13 year anniversary. Work has been stressing him out. They have cut back hours a bit but thankfully I was able to take a new position at work which provides us with the extra hours/money that his job is lacking right now. It'll pick up for him though next month. His job is always feast or famine.

In June I was diagnosed with a rare disorder called Pseudo-tumor cerebri. Basically my body thinks I have a brain tumor(I don't. It was ruled out with MRI) but I am producing too much spinal fluid so my optic nerves are all swollen and causing all kinds of visual disturbances. So I have had an MRI, spinal tap and now I am on potent diuretics and that has helped somewhat. No more weird acid like flashbacks in my eyes anymore. But the optic nerves are still swollen. No where near what they were before but still more than any of the opthamologists would like.

So we are in a holding pattern there and I am frankly just burying my head in the sand and pretending it doesn't exist as long as possible. Not healthy I'm sure but it's my coping mechanism.

Well this got long winded so I'll use the next post to put up some pictures.